Gaze at the card and answer the position one question: What negatives or positives do people point out to me that I have trouble accepting? This is where you will discover denial. What does position one represent in your life? What problems or conditions would you rather avoid? Refer to the card's meaning for tips and suggestions about possible real-life situations. What are you afraid of discovering? What might be your "blind spot" that blocks growth?
When do I get nervous, anxious, touchy, of sensitive with others? Here you will discover your anxiety. What loss do you fear? Fill in the blanks: Fear of ____________ causes me to feel anxious. I am most anxious when ____________. Try to describe specific situations as you journal.
When do I most lack confidence? Here you will discover your area of inferiority. What does position three represent in your life? What event of situation form the past may have caused this shadow to grow? Did your parents play a role in this feeling? Make a journal entry.
What qualities in a person do I most dislike or have the most difficulty dealing with? The answer is the key to discovering your anger and/or rage. Anger is fear in disguise and you may find yourself most uncomfortable with position four.
Look at the card in position five and ask: What do I rarely talk about with others? What are my secrets and my family secrets? Remember to focus on the tarot card as you journal. The answer to the question lies in the energy of that card. What do you fear people will find out about you? What is your deepest, darkest secret? What do you think would happen if someone discovered your secret? Would your life change? What from your past are you trying to hide, if anything? What secret does your shadow reveal?
This may be the most devastating shadow of all. If we cannot love and honor ourselves we cannot realize our highest potential. Being your own worst enemy effectively sabotages personal growth and renders you a helpless victim in your life. The first step toward self-forgiveness is discovering where your self-hatred lies.